I’m not sure if it’s the seasonal blues or my regular depressive episodes have returned. It’s hard to get up in the morning and face the day when you suffer from bipolar disorder. It’s especially hard to face the day when you have a mental disorder and work a full-time job.
I now understand why so many of us have to rely on Social Security disability payments to survive. There are times I have a lot of trouble focusing on tasks. My main issue, is I’m unable to forgive myself and move on when I make a mistake on the job. If a mistake happens, no matter how minor my mind jumps to thinking I’m going to get fired and become homeless. Pretty extreme I know!
I’m sure the upcoming changes going on at work and home will relieve some of the stress I’ve been under the last year or so. Does anyone else find it hard to work with a mental illness? I’m wondering if working is something I’m going to be able to continue for the foreseeable future.
Thanks for reading.