Mindfulness seems to be working

Mindfulness Definitions Intentionally living with awareness in the present moment. (Waking up from automatic or rote behaviors to participate and be present to our own lives.) Without judging or rejecting the moment. (Noticing consequences, discerning helpfulness and harmfulness– but letting go of evaluating, avoiding, suppressing, or blocking the present moment.) Without attachment to the moment….

Started group therapy

I started doing group therapy at Bayless Healthcare yesterday and I think it was a really good decision based on the results so far. In the class the main focus in mindfulness a subject that I have spoken negatively about on my blog in the past. Yesterday was so amazing and different that I’m convinced…

Have I reached my final destination

Holiday’s are always hard for me and if you factor in the arthritis pain it’s downright unbearable. My bipolar is currently kicking my ass and has me in a depressive state and constantly thinking about ways to end it all because sometimes nothingness seems like the better option to pain and depression. I know I…

My anxiety is back with a vengeance

Anxiety really sucks! I have to train someone at work again today and I had so much trouble sleeping because I dread this part of my job the most. I’m just not comfortable with human interaction in real-time. I’ve taken a couple anxiety pills and they’re not even helping so today is really going to…

Happy 4th of July

Happy 4th of July or what I call loud noise PTSD day. This has to be my least favorite holiday because of the fireworks and noises. It doesn’t help that my dad was also shot on the 4th of July when I was a kid by some random gunfire. Due to the fact that I have PTSD…

Going to start detailing my therapy

    For the benefit of others facing the horrors of Bipolar, PTSD, and Severe Anxiety I have decided to share my therapy with you (Kinda). I have found that I’m only honest with my therapist and psychiatrist when I take a letter detailing what is going on in my head prior to our appointment. I…

I’m going to the doctor tomorrow

      Those of you who know me know that I hate going to the doctor especially the psychiatrist for medication. Tomorrow I have to go to the doctor and get a new prescription probably to help with my anxiety, PTSD and bipolar issues. I’m doing better than I have been, but I’m still…

Blogging for therapy

My therapist and psychiatrist both recommend that I start blogging more often to help with my PTSD and bipolar issues. They claim writing down whatever is going on my head no matter how random or jumbled it will help me, in the long run, better manage my moods and issues. I’m not sure about this, but…