Have I reached my final destination

Holiday’s are always hard for me and if you factor in the arthritis pain it’s downright unbearable. My bipolar is currently kicking my ass and has me in a depressive state and constantly thinking about ways to end it all because sometimes nothingness seems like the better option to pain and depression. I know I…

Going to start detailing my therapy

    For the benefit of others facing the horrors of Bipolar, PTSD, and Severe Anxiety I have decided to share my therapy with you (Kinda). I have found that I’m only honest with my therapist and psychiatrist when I take a letter detailing what is going on in my head prior to our appointment. I…

I give up

Dear God, The bible says you are in control of all things. You are a caring God. At least this is what the Bible tells us. Preachers get up in front of us every Sunday and tell us these things and say things like if life gets tough give it to God. But you see it’s not Sunday. It’s actually just…

Bipolar Relapse

It’s coming I can feel it. No matter how much I fight it or try to deny it, I’m relapsing into depression from my bipolar disorder. I’ve been feeling it for a few weeks that voice in my head that keeps telling that me I’m a failure. Completely worthless. That life is not worth living….

Wish my brain would stop

Not feeling very healthy in my brain right now and don’t know who to talk to. I’ve been fixated on death and suicide and it’s not a good thing. I just feel like nobody understands me or even cares. We’ll see how things go but right now I’m not in a good mental place…

I admit it I’m a loser

It’s a tough thing to admit but yep, I’ a loser. I haven’t had a job in a few years because it’s hard for me to concentrate sometimes. I have no money. I rarely leave the house because I’m afraid of going outside. Worst of all for the first time today I realized I may…