Last night I finally gathered enough courage to admit I really have a weight problem and put it out there when I applied to be on the Biggest Loser. I don’t know if I’ll receive any response back but I do feel better just for taking this enormous step in realizing I need help with my weight or I will die an early death. I’m 364lbs AGAIN and my doctor says if I don’t start doing something I may be dead in 10 years so the death part is a real possibility for me.
I just wish I could play with my kids without getting extremely wore out and take them places without worrying about fitting in a seat. I’ve been depressed and have PTSD flashbacks a lot but it wasn’t until I was diagnosed as bipolar that things started getting better with the help of therapy and meds. Now that I actually started caring about things again I look at my weight and think it’s an impossible battle but if I get selected by the Biggest Loser I will drop the weight and never let myself be fat ever again. I’m sure weight loss will also help my diabetes, cholesterol, arthritis and even help really improve my mood. I also think I’d stop being so socially awkward and have an increase in my self esteem.
If I’m not picked I’m stilling going to try. In fact I’m trying now but with life pressures and all I seem to get off track in my attempts. Please wish me luck and give me any advice you have to offer because I need it, not just for me but for my 3 wonderful children as well.