This is my favorite time of year, we’re approaching pumpkins, turkeys, and holiday cheer. As the weather here in Arizona finally starts to cool down and days get shorter I’ve been finding myself reflecting on the events of the last year. What I’ve learned is I truly am a blessed man. Sure, I’ve had a lot of problems but the life I’ve created with my wife and children is something I wouldn’t trade for anything anybody could offer me.
The past year has had some great memories such as my youngest child David starting kindergarten and my families first drama free vacation ever. That’s not to say we didn’t have our bad times this year mainly meaning the issues that have arisen as a result of my mother’s cancer and its treatment. That’s something that’s still playing out and I’m still holding out hope that somehow God will intervene and make everything okay.
Perhaps the bigest milestone is the fact that this is the 10th year my wife and I have been together. We may have had our issues like all couples but at the end of the day I know Keisa will be there to support me and help me in any way she can. Family is a gift that’s why when you find that special someone and make a life together you do everything in your power to make it work. I’ve been lucky because despite all my flaws she stayed with me and is helping me deal with my issues while at the same time working with me to make sure our children grow up with every advantage we are able to give them.
Recently, you may have read my blog post discussing how I was unsure of God’s purpose for my life and I may tell you friend I think I finally figured it out. This morning I realized I’m not a mistake! God may not have revealed my ultimate purpose but I do know I was created in part to meet my wife Keisa and bring these three wonderful children (Vanessa, Rebecca and David) into this world and teach them how to become productive Christian members of society. At times that chore is actually very difficult and sacrifices have and will have to be made but when my children are my age they will know that their mom and dad did everything they could to prepare them for the journey of life.
I really hope the last few days are an indicator that my mood and PTSD issues are starting to heal themselves because I’ve actually been feeling a lot better. The thing that amazes me most is I’m actually finding myself smiling at different points of the day which is very unusual for me. For far too long I’ve been on the losing end of this fight against my depression and PTSD is a good feeling to actually feel as if I’m fighting back for a change. Thanks for visiting my blog, and I would appreciate it if you do me a comment or any type of feedback. Till next time — Lonnie Smalley