I’ve always had a strange relationship with my dad. Sometimes it’s good and sometimes it’s bad but usually I’m not sure why but I’m scared to death of him. I used to go visit every Sunday when my mom was alive, but now I just can’t bear to walk into his house because I’m overwhelmed with thoughts of my mother. Not only did I see her dead on her bed in that house somewhere there is a jar with her ashes which I can’t come to terms with no matter how hard I try.
I did send my dad a nice Father’s Day card since I’m not sure if I’ll be able to call since I’m having phone issues and also have to work that day. I do love him and pretty much the rest of my family it’s just that my brain can’t handle being close to them because of all the triggers. I hope he has a great day and hopefully I will be of a visit before his time is up.
Happy Fathers Day Dad