The bible say’s that God has a plan for all of us and I believe that that it true. However, I have no clue what his plan for my life is and am starting to grow frustrated. You see, for most of my life I have looked at myself as being a mistake, a person who was unworthy of even living. Now maybe this is from my childhood trauma that still messes with my head to this day or perhaps it’s something else but as I’ve seen on countless T-shirts and bumper stickers “God makes no mistakes” so I guess that means I belong here.
I’ve done countless hours of soul searching and still draw a blank when it comes to my purpose. I’m not especially good at anything and overall I live about as meaningless of a life in the eyes of the world that a person can live. So what’s my purpose? No clue. My only hope is that it’s revealed to me at some point so I can start doing whatever it is I’m supposed to do.
On a side note– My mom is still in the hospital and basically they are just trying to make her comfterable in her final days. Thank you to everyone who prayed for her and sent words of encouragement it means a lot to me.