Today will be my second time and group therapy at this new treatment facility for my PTSD and depression symptoms. We meet in “Mood group” every Wednesday for two hours and I am expected to do this for a total of 12 weeks .Don't get me wrong I do need therapy so that I can properly learn how to manage some of these overwhelming feelings that I get as part of my PTSD and depression but if last week's session is any indication of what the next 11 sessions will be like then this will be nearly unbearable. You see the therapist lost control of the group within the first 10 minuets and they all went off on talking about totally unrelated issues for most of my time there and in my opinion they pretty much ended up causing me to waste two hours of my time.
Hopefully, this week will be better at group and tomorrow at last I am going to be put back on antidepressants which thus far I've been told is something in all likelihood I'm going to have to be on for the rest of my life since I have such a major chemical imbalance inside of my body. This time I really hope I don't end up feeling like a zombie again because even though at times my pain may be unbearable I really don't want to imagine what it would be like to give up those rare happy feelings that come around from time to time.