I now am 40 years old and have unfortunately realized the older you get the harder life becomes. I’m not happy and am enough mental health medication to probably kill or at least sedate a Clydesdale horse.
Life isn’t fun right now and even going outside is a challenge because my medication does not react well with the Arizona summertime heat. Often times when I do go out I become severely dehydrated and feel as though I’m going to pass out. I hate this and there are days I wish I could stop taking my medication or just fade into nothingness.
Eventually, I hope I do start enjoying life again but it’s just hard for me right now because I’m under a tremendous amount of stress and legitimately feel like a worthless human being.
Nothing has really gone right for me this month and I don’t see any chances for improvement in the near future. In fact, I find myself feeling completely alone and when those moments I think of self-harm or even worse things.
Hopefully, you hear from me again soon since I’m considering giving up on this blog and all social media.
Thanks for reading and I apologize for being such a Debbie Downer.