So about a year ago I was in a therapy session with my awful therapist who thought that it would be a good idea to write a letter to my anxiety and share it. It’s just been sitting around hidden on my computer but then the other day I thought I should finally share it.
Anxiety tells me that people are watching my every move and judging me. It tells me that I am the center of attention and everyone is thinking about me. Anxiety lies to me and tells me that people are mad at me hate me or just don’t like me. Anxiety stops me from meeting people that I have never met before but also tells me that about people that are very close to me and I love very much have negatively impacted my life and has made it more difficult than it needs to be. I feel like it has been holding me back from living the life that I want to lead and experiencing the things I want to do. Causing me to always hide who I am because I feel like I have to try harder things that come so easily to others. Anxiety also made me aware of my surroundings and people and I’m very cautious because of that anxiety has kept me away from relationships my friends and possible careers anxiety has me so worried about what other people think of me that I go out of my way to pretend that I’m normal as possible so far as I hiding my anxiety for people has worked out and people who I do you confide and don’t really believe that I have talked to my anxiety I would tell it that I’m a very strong person I have been dealing with you my entire life and not to let you when this is my life, not yours. I know you’re never going to completely go away but I’m going to stop letting you play such a huge role in my life. I’m better than you and I deserve to feel free.