I've been letting my life kind of just aimlessly drift to and fro and going wherever it takes me, instead of taking the time to make a plan and set goals for the future. Hopefully, I will be able to correct this life issue in the coming weeks because I think that it is quite possible the lack of a plan may be causing a lot of my depression and boredom issues.
I don't think I need to go as far as talking to a psychiatrist or a professional life planner I just need to put in some thought of what I actually want out of life and what steps will be required in achieving these goals. I remember as a child, my life goal was to become a professional journalist, I totally missed that one.
Anyway, I'm just sick of always feeling like a failure and a black sheep so maybe if I'm lucky I can do something that if nothing else at least helps me raise my self-esteem even just a little bit.