It’s January 4th and I have already failed miserably at my New Year’s resolutions. The depression that I started the year with is in helping any and even has me willing to give up on all of my quests to better myself. I feel like my main two goals are unachievable. I’m not sure how I can lose about 40 pounds this year and get my blood sugar under some kind of control. I’m hoping to get it at least to an average under 200 which is still high but way lower than it’s been the last few years.
The fact that it’s raining pretty much all this week isn’t helping me either because of the arthritis pain and the fact that I’m having to skip my walks which happened to be my primary source of exercise. Today I kind of just gave up for a bit. I binged and cried. Now that I got that out of my system it’s time to start again and be more realistic and make easier to obtain short-term goals.
As far as blood glucose goes my new current goal is just to prevent the spikes that push it into the 300s. I’m fairly certain I can do that without even trying that hard. Weight on the other hand, is going to be more difficult. My first goal weight now will be to get under 310 pounds. I know it’s doable but for some reason especially with my thyroid problem is pretty hard. I know I can achieve my goals I just need to be easier myself and know there will be days I will fail. I just have to pick myself up and try again.