It is now January 10, 2018, and I officially realize that I have a problem.
I haven’t been taking care of myself like I should’ve been and now my body has been fighting back. I have broken bones, a few wounds that just won’t heal and am still feeling the effects of a random seizure I had the other day.
I can’t sleep because my PTSD has been acting up since December 27, 2017 and when I do finally get a few minutes of rest I either have a traumatic nightmare or am reliving my workday. I have been so tired lately that my days have blended together and I haven’t even been able to find the strength to eat very much. I mean the weight loss has been great but this is definitely not a healthy way to lose some pounds.
I need to try to take care of myself this year if I want to accomplish my goals. My body is telling me it needs a break and I need to start listening. Last week I overdid it and worked 80 hours because we had a slight emergency going on at my work. While I did work Monday which was supposed to be my day off I opted not to do anything today because my body pretty much told me Nope can’t do it go back to bed.
I need to find a healthy balance between work and life. While I’m doing that I might also want to look for a life outside of work beyond just hanging out in my living room or bed.
Wish me luck!